Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Relationship Shit

This relationship shit is really starting to get to me. As I take a look at all my friends entering these "serious relationships" I question what the hell is wrong with me? Yes about a month and a half ago I blogged about not wanting a relationship, and not wanting to force myself into something. However, these thoughts have changed. I am finding myself wanting a relationship, wanting to be with someone. Wanting that companionship. I will not front, I am semi- questioning myself, trying to figure out he, or she pulled him or her.

Am I extremely picky? Why should I have to settle? I have certain qualities I want in my mate. I am well aware that I am not going to find someone who has all of these qualities, and I am cool with that. But if I met a guy, and he doesn't have the key qualities I am looking for, am I settling? I have met some extremely cool women in my time, and they have been SUPER single. I believe in all that hype "there's someone out there for everyone." When I met these single women who are older, I question "damn did she really meet the dream guy, and blow it?" Trust me I do not want to be the chick who meets the great guy, but blows it because he did not match up to my standards. People tell me all the time that I am going to meet a nice guy single guy. For some reason I don't believe them! I have met some great guys recently!!! ( I say that with so much enthusiasm) The downfall to these great guys is they have girlfriends. All I can say is they have some lucky ass girlfriends! I would LOVE to date a guy who would be my best friend/companion/soulmate.

I am not writing to complain about the lack of men, or the lack of men's qualities. That independent women shit is looong over for me. I want someone to build with. I know relationships can be overrated (so I've heard) My next relationship will not be overrated. It is going to be the SHIT (in a good way).

In the meantime I will focus on myself, and my future, as well as working on my goals so when I met the man of my dreams in his eyes I will be the most ambitious, beautiful, flyest, funniest, and all of the above and more woman he has ever met. A quote I will never forget one of my good friends told me this weekend. " Why settle for the basement apartment, when you can get a mansion."

* Are you settling? Have you settling? Do you want a relationship? Is being single overrated?