Relationship Shit

This relationship shit is really starting to get to me. As I take a look at all my friends entering these "serious relationships" I question what the hell is wrong with me? Yes about a month and a half ago I blogged about not wanting a relationship, and not wanting to force myself into something. However, these thoughts have changed. I am finding myself wanting a relationship, wanting to be with someone. Wanting that companionship. I will not front, I am semi- questioning myself, trying to figure out he, or she pulled him or her.

Am I extremely picky? Why should I have to settle? I have certain qualities I want in my mate. I am well aware that I am not going to find someone who has all of these qualities, and I am cool with that. But if I met a guy, and he doesn't have the key qualities I am looking for, am I settling? I have met some extremely cool women in my time, and they have been SUPER single. I believe in all that hype "there's someone out there for everyone." When I met these single women who are older, I question "damn did she really meet the dream guy, and blow it?" Trust me I do not want to be the chick who meets the great guy, but blows it because he did not match up to my standards. People tell me all the time that I am going to meet a nice guy single guy. For some reason I don't believe them! I have met some great guys recently!!! ( I say that with so much enthusiasm) The downfall to these great guys is they have girlfriends. All I can say is they have some lucky ass girlfriends! I would LOVE to date a guy who would be my best friend/companion/soulmate.

I am not writing to complain about the lack of men, or the lack of men's qualities. That independent women shit is looong over for me. I want someone to build with. I know relationships can be overrated (so I've heard) My next relationship will not be overrated. It is going to be the SHIT (in a good way).

In the meantime I will focus on myself, and my future, as well as working on my goals so when I met the man of my dreams in his eyes I will be the most ambitious, beautiful, flyest, funniest, and all of the above and more woman he has ever met. A quote I will never forget one of my good friends told me this weekend. " Why settle for the basement apartment, when you can get a mansion."

* Are you settling? Have you settling? Do you want a relationship? Is being single overrated?

The Struggle

Why can't we accept things for what they are? Why do people always sugar coat the truth. Is it because we do not want to hurt peoples feelings? If someone is wrong, or if something is wrong we should vocalize it. Life is so much better when people are honest and truthful. We as a society or people but band aids over everything. If something happens we just try and patch it up and keep it moving. We live on the forget about it system. Aren't we all tired of just patching things up and not really working on things? If situations do not work let it go! Why should we as people waste our time on things. We can never get a minute wasted back, so if we cant get the minute wasted back, why even bother wasting it? I guess we all have to live and learn. When we wait on things, we miss out on endless opportunities. Sometimes a missed opportunity we can never get back. Then we spend our lives wondering what our lives would have been like if we seized the opportunity that was before us. Remember we only get "ONE" life to live. Don't dwell on what you cannot control, but remember everything happens for a reason, and sometimes the reason of why something happened will never be revealed to us. Life your life based on you, and no one else.

* Fin*

The purpose of this quick rant was because I found myself drifting this week and thinking about some decisions, I did not make. My life has a path, and so does yours. However, I cannot sit here and dwell on opportunities I did not take advantage of. I often wonder what life would have been like if I stayed in N.C? Or what if I did apply to the grad program at NYU. Its water under the bridge. I now have new opportunities to take advantage of. Live your life for you, because no one is else doing it.