Have my recent posts been boring???

I am well aware that I have probably turned some of you off, and have caused others to be bored. I am a working young adult who is trying to have a life.. I think of so much to blog about, but I rarely get the time to write about.  I am currently looking for some blog ideas. Please comment and tell about some things you would like me to read and research. I look forward to your ideas...

~ One Love~

Its been a long time...

Its been a long time, I should not have left you.. without a dope post to read!!!! Forgive me... 

 Life has been pretty interesting these last couple of weeks.. I am currently sick as hell!!!! I am taking the day of off work to get better. I feel like shit!!!! I do not have H1N1 I have a bad cold. Now that I am back in Connecticut I am spending my free time traveling to the City and working. Also I a dodging low lifes. You know the people who are not doing shit with themselves, the same ones I left here in Connecticut four years ago. It is like they never change, because they have not. They are stuck in the same mindset. It is kind of sad. The girls are still chasing the whack drug dealers. And the guys have two or three more kids. 

Now I am not saying I am better than these people, but I am keeping my distance; it is very easy to fall in the trap of settling. I refuse to settle, which is why I am staying on my grind! Connecticut is not permanent, and I plan to be out of here the summer of 2010 if not sooner.  I am looking at Boston,  D.C., Philly, North Carolina, and some other places. There is just something great about having your own spot/getaway. Where the only people who come are the ones you invite. Thats just my opinion.  

Anywho... I need to get out of the house, it is semi- driving me crazy.. I promise I will blog a lot more... I have some good posts running through my head, so do not worry they are coming soon. I will not leave you all like this agian..  

I moved...

I have officially relocated back to Connecticut.. Forgive me for not blogging as often as I should, I have hectic days. I am volunteering and doing some other work.  I currently cannot complain about life. I am enjoying my life, and I am living it to the fullest. I am trying to take advantage of every opportunity that comes my way. You never know why certain things happen the way they do. I am learning to no longer ask  questions. I am becoming a "go with the flow" girl! I have not decided if that is good or bad.  I hope it is a good thing. Of course if you know me I do not flow with stupid ish. Sensible decisions are the only decisions that I make!!! 

 It has suddenly hit me that my peers have either gone back to undergrad, or has started their first week of graduate courses.  It is an interesting feeling not currently being in school. Well, I have moved on from that period in my life. I am over the fact that I am currently not in graduate school. I refuse to continue to dwell on it. What is that going to do for me?? The next couple of months of my life I am going to look into who I am and what I want to do. And what is going to make me happy. I am excited and ready for what is next!!!!  Life is what you make it... I am in my prime, I have not really started yet. Enjoy your life and live it to the fullest. 

You Did What?

We all have so many skeletons in our closet. We all have secrets that we would never tell maybe our best friend. In todays society people are doing just about anything to get  by in this world. I believe I have written on this topic once before, but this time I am going to go more in depth. 

Love is a beautiful thing, it is made for two people to enjoy, have trials, and ups and downs. When do you tell your significant other about your past? Or do you keep your past to yourself? Is it ok to tell this person about things you "tried" in college? Or should you keep this to yourself? Or if you keep it to yourself are you not being honest with your significant other? When is telling too much too much? Where does one draw the line? 

How do you know if your significant other is hiding things from the past, that you know nothing about? Would you be mad if you found out? Its the past,  why get mad??? 

i want your opinions............

Allow me to be BLUNT!!!!!

       

As of May 9, 2009 I became a graduate of Bennett College in Greensboro, NC. I had plans dreams and goals, I wanted certain things to fall in order and happen. I should be preparing for graduate school; however I am not attending "Graduate School" in the Fall. ( I will eventually get my Masters, just not in the Fall.) I am deeply hurt, and perturbed by these events.  A Master's degree does not make a person! I know this!!!  I am currently interning for a company who has played me money wise; I learned a lot and I will not allow anyone to BS me.. .I may be young but I am an adult. Needless to say my last day with the company is tomorrow.  At this point I dodge the question when people want to know what I am doing since I have graduated. Honestly I rather not talk to people about what I want to do; Or what I wanted to do. Peoples reactions and comments sometimes throw me for a loop.

    I know it is horrible that I really cannot keep in touch with my close friends I recently graduated with. I find myself keeping a distance, and not returning phone calls or text messages because I feel as if we do not have anything in common anymore. I am going to be honest this ISH is tough. My dad keeps saying " stop looking at everyone else, and comparing yourself to everyone else."  It is kind of hard, sometime you have to take a look around you and see where people are going, and where are you going.  I am a driven person, with a determined spirit; but I feel broken, sometimes when people get to this point they make "stupid" decisions, and never think things through.

      Today I closed a new chapter in my life! I moved all of my belongings out of my apartment. My lease was up, but this was my very first apartment; it was a bitter sweet moment for me. but as I walked out of the apartment for the last time I felt as if I got rid of baggage that I was holding on to I felt a release. This new chapter is crazy for me as it begins... I am in North Carolina living with an aunt but I am debating if I should go back to Connecticut where I am from where my parents reside. CT is a place where people settle and become content with meritocracy.  I am not content with going back there!!!!! I am not ready to live under my parents roof again; I love my mom and dad a lot but I am not ready for that.... Leaving CT was the best thing I did; I went to an HBCU, and accomplished every goal I had, and every dream. I let go of my past and lived my life, without regret. I know I say I do not want to go back to CT, and I am sure you are reading this, and saying "don't go back," but I do not want to stay with my aunt too long where I feel like a burden. I do not want to go out on a limb and sign a lease for an apartment that I cannot afford. 

 So I wonder am I allowing this small stepping stone ( Situation) to destroy me???  Is it that deep? Or am I making it more than what it is? Is my ego playing a role because I do not want "any" job?   

Sorry if this post is all over the place, my mind is scattered, I would love to hear people's opinions and thoughts on this. * I am aware that I am the only one who can make a decision,  I am simply asking for one's thoughts and opinions on this situation. 

IM Not Sure how to approach this...

I have two major issues I would like to write about................

Tattoos you love them, you hide them, you show them. Tattoos are an expression of ones self, who and what a person is. Something they love, a quote they live by. Something a person went through. Why do people act as if tattoos are so negative? I understand it is permanent ink on ones body, but is it that serious? I am guilty of having several tattoos I actually love tattoos. They are all hidden except for one tattoo which is a butterfly on my inner wrist. A piece of jewelery can cover the tattoo up, but one would still be able to notice it. A lot of people do not understand the meaning of a butterfly, but it represents something you went through in life, and how you came out a stronger person. I am curious what is the big deal about tattoos? Why do people get them, keep them for a while, then decide they want to get them removed?

* Discuss*

Dreams are REAL!!!

For a while I have been thinking about my goals in college, that all came true. How did I get this dreams to come true? I wrote them down, looked at them and prayed about them. So many of us have goals, however we do not follow through. (NOT GOOD) We (including myself) have got to learn how to get goals accomplished. Talking about what you want to do will always be a dream, because you have never placed it in writing. When you place your goals in writing its like something magical happens, you become a step closer to making your dreams become a reality. Write the goals down and pray. Ask God to give you the strength each and everyday to work hard toward that goal. The harder you work towards the goal the easier it will be for you to get there.



There are so many dream killers out here it is crazy. You cannot share your dreams, goals or thoughts with everyone. Sometime family members can be dream killers, I know it is scary to think that, but it is true. Family members can be HATERS to... Know and understand your worth, and do not allow anyone to tell you, you are less than what you really are. Everything in life is about confidence. How confident are you when you walk out the door? Confidence always sells people, they do not have to know that you may not fully have everything together. If you can sell yourself and or product people may invest in you, or your product. You never know who is watching, and what they are watching for. For now on Live life and Love it!!! I'm sure we all have curve balls, and speed bumps and life, take it as a lesson learned and enjoy who you are...



With all of this said I hope this really helps someone.... .Life is so much fun when you know and understand your worth.. I am preparing myself for a bigger picture, and I am starting with my goals...



Remember: Follow your dreams, or you will work for somebody that did!!



* Be blessed, and enjoy your day.