D.C. Part 2

I am a pretty observant person, I always take in everything that is going on around me. I love D.C. and I am especially grateful for the experiences and eye openers that I had while in D.C. 

We have all since exchanged numbers, we are still in D.C. and we are prepping to go and enjoy our final night. My linesister, myself, and my girl are all getting dressed we are getting ready to go grab something to eat, and then the rest is up in the air. 

I failed to mention someone who was on the trip, because I did not think he was that important. However for this part of the story he is. John (who is a late aged twenty something gay man who rode down with us) John knocks on my door, and wants to know where we are going, and what are plans are for the evening. We tell him, we are not to sure but we are going to grab a bite to eat.  C. is the name of the guy who I told you about earlier. We tell John that we are going to more than likely go out and eat with C, and his friends. He says cool, and asks if he can come with. We all agree he can and out we go. 

   We enter the restaurant we are all seated at the table. C, his boys my girls and John. C, of course sat across from me! he and I are engaged in conversation about life, school, and dreams. I notice John, glancing at me in a weird manner, I really do not care about how he is looking at me. I continue my conversation! we prepare to go to some fraternity party, John is now rushing us all out of the restaurant because he has to go back to the hotel. ( side eye) * my thought is why are we being rushed out to bring you back?* Whatever!!! we drop John off at the hotel and end up at a hotel down the street from where we are all staying.  

We all sit in the lobby and talk, and laugh at the randomness that is going on around us. I get up to go to the bathroom and my Linesister is on my heels walking to the bathroom with me. She looks at me and says I think there is some down low shit going on here! Huh, (blank stare) what do you think is going on? She says John wants C!!!!! You have C's attention and he is mad...  He really wants C. Why would he want C? I ask my LS do you think C has gay tendencies? She says if so they are not visible. Now I am floored, I do not know how to look at the situation.  We go back to the hotel lobby, I sit down and I am quiet! I have nothing to say, I am trying to process this situation. Is he gay? or is he attracted to men? It does not matter, I do not want anything to do with this, or him. I am not sure what he wants.

D.C. Part 1

       Last September my Senior year of college, I decided to attend the CBC ( Congressional Black Caucus)   I always have and always will have a crazy love affair with D.C... I freaking LOVE D.C.... While attending the CBC, they have a job/career fair that is going on downstair in the main lobby. I get a call from my Aunt telling me to come meet her down there. I go down stairs and I meet her.  We walk from table to table, meet people, Network and get business cards.  Of course she runs into people she knows from NC.. She introduces me to this young man! We shake hands smile and thats it. ( NO CONNECTION) 

    In the beginning this guy and I have no connection from that first meeting. My aunt somehow gets some tix for a LL Cool J party at LOVE. My God Sis is underage, which means she is not going to get in. I  make some calls, trying to establish my party network which is important in one's 20's. and my boy says he cant get her in because she is not of age; he can get us in without tickets.  Clearly a fail.. I didn't get to go any of the hot parties during the CBC!!!!!!  Disappointed was a n understatement.. I am now ready to go back to NC. 

My Line Sister who lives in D.C. calls me and says she is on her way to my hotel!!! I cant wait to see her.  I get fly, Prepped because she always has something up her sleeve for fun.  I tell my God Sis to get ready.. My LS gets to the hotel I go down to meet her in the lobby.  The lobby is packed with nothing but Black people with their best on. I run into my aunt, who is talking to a group of young guys.. ( Cougar) I sashay over to where my aunt is with my LS, and God Sis. We all engage in a conversation.  The guys say they are about to go get something to eat would we like to join them.. YESSSS!!!!!! We go out to eat, we engage in some deep conversations:  Black community, education, Sorority/Fraternity........... 

We leave the restaurant and go to a local hotel. ( Not my HOTEL)  I am kind of digging this dude James, his whole vibe is on point! He is 24 years old, owns his own business he can speak a proper sentence, he well educated! I like him, at the end of the night we end up exchanging numbers.. Of Course my girls exchanged numbers with his friends. 

 

Have my recent posts been boring???

I am well aware that I have probably turned some of you off, and have caused others to be bored. I am a working young adult who is trying to have a life.. I think of so much to blog about, but I rarely get the time to write about.  I am currently looking for some blog ideas. Please comment and tell about some things you would like me to read and research. I look forward to your ideas...

~ One Love~

Its been a long time...

Its been a long time, I should not have left you.. without a dope post to read!!!! Forgive me... 

 Life has been pretty interesting these last couple of weeks.. I am currently sick as hell!!!! I am taking the day of off work to get better. I feel like shit!!!! I do not have H1N1 I have a bad cold. Now that I am back in Connecticut I am spending my free time traveling to the City and working. Also I a dodging low lifes. You know the people who are not doing shit with themselves, the same ones I left here in Connecticut four years ago. It is like they never change, because they have not. They are stuck in the same mindset. It is kind of sad. The girls are still chasing the whack drug dealers. And the guys have two or three more kids. 

Now I am not saying I am better than these people, but I am keeping my distance; it is very easy to fall in the trap of settling. I refuse to settle, which is why I am staying on my grind! Connecticut is not permanent, and I plan to be out of here the summer of 2010 if not sooner.  I am looking at Boston,  D.C., Philly, North Carolina, and some other places. There is just something great about having your own spot/getaway. Where the only people who come are the ones you invite. Thats just my opinion.  

Anywho... I need to get out of the house, it is semi- driving me crazy.. I promise I will blog a lot more... I have some good posts running through my head, so do not worry they are coming soon. I will not leave you all like this agian..  

I moved...

I have officially relocated back to Connecticut.. Forgive me for not blogging as often as I should, I have hectic days. I am volunteering and doing some other work.  I currently cannot complain about life. I am enjoying my life, and I am living it to the fullest. I am trying to take advantage of every opportunity that comes my way. You never know why certain things happen the way they do. I am learning to no longer ask  questions. I am becoming a "go with the flow" girl! I have not decided if that is good or bad.  I hope it is a good thing. Of course if you know me I do not flow with stupid ish. Sensible decisions are the only decisions that I make!!! 

 It has suddenly hit me that my peers have either gone back to undergrad, or has started their first week of graduate courses.  It is an interesting feeling not currently being in school. Well, I have moved on from that period in my life. I am over the fact that I am currently not in graduate school. I refuse to continue to dwell on it. What is that going to do for me?? The next couple of months of my life I am going to look into who I am and what I want to do. And what is going to make me happy. I am excited and ready for what is next!!!!  Life is what you make it... I am in my prime, I have not really started yet. Enjoy your life and live it to the fullest. 

You Did What?

We all have so many skeletons in our closet. We all have secrets that we would never tell maybe our best friend. In todays society people are doing just about anything to get  by in this world. I believe I have written on this topic once before, but this time I am going to go more in depth. 

Love is a beautiful thing, it is made for two people to enjoy, have trials, and ups and downs. When do you tell your significant other about your past? Or do you keep your past to yourself? Is it ok to tell this person about things you "tried" in college? Or should you keep this to yourself? Or if you keep it to yourself are you not being honest with your significant other? When is telling too much too much? Where does one draw the line? 

How do you know if your significant other is hiding things from the past, that you know nothing about? Would you be mad if you found out? Its the past,  why get mad??? 

i want your opinions............

Allow me to be BLUNT!!!!!

       

As of May 9, 2009 I became a graduate of Bennett College in Greensboro, NC. I had plans dreams and goals, I wanted certain things to fall in order and happen. I should be preparing for graduate school; however I am not attending "Graduate School" in the Fall. ( I will eventually get my Masters, just not in the Fall.) I am deeply hurt, and perturbed by these events.  A Master's degree does not make a person! I know this!!!  I am currently interning for a company who has played me money wise; I learned a lot and I will not allow anyone to BS me.. .I may be young but I am an adult. Needless to say my last day with the company is tomorrow.  At this point I dodge the question when people want to know what I am doing since I have graduated. Honestly I rather not talk to people about what I want to do; Or what I wanted to do. Peoples reactions and comments sometimes throw me for a loop.

    I know it is horrible that I really cannot keep in touch with my close friends I recently graduated with. I find myself keeping a distance, and not returning phone calls or text messages because I feel as if we do not have anything in common anymore. I am going to be honest this ISH is tough. My dad keeps saying " stop looking at everyone else, and comparing yourself to everyone else."  It is kind of hard, sometime you have to take a look around you and see where people are going, and where are you going.  I am a driven person, with a determined spirit; but I feel broken, sometimes when people get to this point they make "stupid" decisions, and never think things through.

      Today I closed a new chapter in my life! I moved all of my belongings out of my apartment. My lease was up, but this was my very first apartment; it was a bitter sweet moment for me. but as I walked out of the apartment for the last time I felt as if I got rid of baggage that I was holding on to I felt a release. This new chapter is crazy for me as it begins... I am in North Carolina living with an aunt but I am debating if I should go back to Connecticut where I am from where my parents reside. CT is a place where people settle and become content with meritocracy.  I am not content with going back there!!!!! I am not ready to live under my parents roof again; I love my mom and dad a lot but I am not ready for that.... Leaving CT was the best thing I did; I went to an HBCU, and accomplished every goal I had, and every dream. I let go of my past and lived my life, without regret. I know I say I do not want to go back to CT, and I am sure you are reading this, and saying "don't go back," but I do not want to stay with my aunt too long where I feel like a burden. I do not want to go out on a limb and sign a lease for an apartment that I cannot afford. 

 So I wonder am I allowing this small stepping stone ( Situation) to destroy me???  Is it that deep? Or am I making it more than what it is? Is my ego playing a role because I do not want "any" job?   

Sorry if this post is all over the place, my mind is scattered, I would love to hear people's opinions and thoughts on this. * I am aware that I am the only one who can make a decision,  I am simply asking for one's thoughts and opinions on this situation.